I have worked my ass off in dance this year. Everyone says that they see that. But it isn’t enough. I am still behind. I try so so hard to be just as good as the girls I am in class with but it’s so fucking hard. Most of them are older than me and have been doing ballet for 10 years. I haven’t. I’m not perfect like the rest. I can’t pick up choreography very quickly. My arabesque is pitiful. I suck at turning. I don’t have the perfect ballet body. I don’t have a strong core. All of these things seem like enough to just give up. But all I want to do is dance. I want to be amazing. I want other dancers to think I’m good, and look up to me for a change. I feel stuck. There is no way for me to win. All I can do is cry, and continue being a joke of a dancer.